Present Perfect

"Every negative event contains within it the seedbut praise for their help. Sure, walking into the
of an equal or greater benefit." ~ Napoleon Hill,building was tough on my pride. (Who would see
Think and Grow Richme?) What would my bank say when they
Perhaps you're familiar with present perfect as arecognized the source of the funds paid into my
grammatical term, but I would like to offer aaccount and realized I was on welfare? (As if
different perspective of these words - as in "thethey had someone checking!) How would I answer
present is perfect."friends' inquiries about what I was doing these
Now, before you scream at me that yourdays? It was a very humbling experience to say
present is anything BUT perfect, please indulgethe least.
me for a moment and consider an event fromSo what was perfect about it, you may ask.
your past that you judged to be 'bad or 'wrong'Nothing... at the time. Enduring pain, humiliation and
at the time. Now, think carefully about whatguilt are not my idea of positive experiences.
transpired as a result of that experience.However, there was an up side to it all. As I was
What events unfolded because of it? What wasunable to sit for extended periods of time and
the outcome? Is it possible that something 'good'therefore unable to work in traditional jobs, Social
came about? I would venture to say that it did...Services directed me to a self-employment
every time.program that taught participants how to set-up
At first, it may be difficult at accept that theretheir own business as well as the skills necessary
was any 'good,' but I guarantee that if you lookto maintain it.
hard enough and long enough, you will ALWAYSIn the months prior to my sciatica episode, I had
find it. Something ALWAYS happens as a resultwritten my first book "Joy Makers" and had the
of an experience that makes it perfect.brilliant idea of creating a business around it. I
The first personal example that comes to mywrote up a proposal for my idea and was
mind happened a few years ago. One morning, Iaccepted into the self-employment program. As a
woke up with some discomfort in my lower back.result, I received impressive instruction from a
Within a couple of hours, the discomfort hadwonderful business advisor/trainer who also
escalated to the point where I couldn't movebecame a personal friend. In addition to this
without excruciating pain. The only way I couldfriendship, I also benefited in other ways. Here are
get around was by dragging myself across thesome of them:
floor. Raising my body to sit on the toilet was* My new business advisor/friend generously
almost unbearable, and sitting on a chair or couchinvited me to participate in a private course she
was impossible.was teaching about creating your own life. This led
Walking was also out of the question, so I ateto some amazing personal revelations and was a
very little that day. It was far too painful to standturning point in my life.
up and prepare food, and I could only manage a* The same person also introduced me to
few minutes at a time. I swallowed someanother wonderful friend who I would probably
pain-killers, gathered some cushions around me,never have met otherwise.
and tried to make myself as comfortable as* My book was eventually published.
possible on the floor. With the TV remote on one* The experience I gained from publishing my
side of me and the telephone on the other, Iown book, led to a meeting with another
managed to get through the day.self-published author who also became a very
Sleep that night was fitful to say the least, but Igood friend.
managed to get in a couple of hours. The next* This friend became my business partner in two
day wasn't any better. The pain was stilldifferent ventures.
unbearable, so one of my daughters came over* I now co-own a self-publishing service where
to help. She took one look at me and carted mewe assist writers to become published authors,
off to the Emergency Department of the localand another wellness business which provides
hospital where we waited for almost ten hours tohealthier, safer products for families and the
see a doctor and for them to examine me. Theyenvironment at very reasonable prices.
took x-rays, they poked, and they prodded. Their* I still maintain contact with many of the people I
diagnosis was 'probably' sciatica so they gave memet on the business course and have been able
drugs for the pain and referred me to my familyto share and network with many others.
doctor who later referred me to a specialist for* I learned a great deal about online marketing.
tests.* I taught myself website design to market my
At first blush, there doesn't appear to be anythingbook and my businesses.
positive about this experience, but let meThese are just some of the results of that event.
elaborate a little about my circumstances at thatIn addition to the above, one of my daughters
time. I had returned from Thailand a few monthswho had been living in Pennsylvania, was
earlier and had made the decision not to work atprompted by my sciatica challenge to come back,
a traditional office job because my boredom withand we continue to share a home. Since I had
office work was what sent me to Thailand in thebeen missing her very much, I was overjoyed at
first place! But, we all have to eat and pay for aher return as we get along very well. This
roof over our head, so I had been working for arelationship has proved to be a godsend to us
couple of temp agencies to tide me over until Iboth and we continue to grow from it.
came across the "perfect" job. I hadn't theI hope this account of a 'bad' incident has provided
faintest idea what that would be, but I had faith inyou with an example of the perfection of our
the Universe that it would materialize.experiences. Certainly I didn't look upon it as a
The only problem with temp work is that there'good' thing at the time but, in retrospect, a great
are no benefits: No sick leave, no medicalmany good things came about because of it...
insurance, no drug plan. Plus, no work = noboth the sciatica and my ensuing welfare episode.
income. How was I going to pay my rent? MyThere have been many other incidents where I
savings were nonexistent since my Thailand tripcan look back on a 'bad' experience and recognize
and my family were in no position to help out sothe blessing that transpired as a result. In
my financial outlook was pretty dismal. My onlyretrospect, I can't think of one single event in my
recourse was... dare I say it?... WELFARE.life that was not positive. So now, when
Just the word sent shivers down my spine! I hadsomething "unwanted" takes place, I look at it
never received 'charity' in my life and even dislikedwith acceptance - the attitude that this too shall
unemployment insurance the couple of times Ipass and I will eventually find the 'pearl within.'
had been laid off past jobs. How was I ever goingFor me, this is a much better way of looking at
to accept welfare?my life situation. For me, the present is ALWAYS
To cut a long story short, Social Services treatedperfect!
me with dignity and respect and I have nothing